HarmonyWe were always like The yellow rape fields And the endless blue sky In summer Building a beautiful harmony Between the colours.But todayThe sky is grey.
UntitledWhere does it come from?This unbearable achingThat comes with the rainOf summer timeAnd goes with the windOf autumn nights.Leaving a painful sadnessIn a broken heartAnd an ever aching soul.
RegretThinking about past times too much...
PathsI saw you walking down the streetSeeing you walking away like thatMakes me smile a bit sadlyBut I turn around, keep walkingWalking down the other wayMy path of lifeGoes in the opposite directionThe path I've chosen to goA path without youAs I walk furtherAnd further away from youMy smile becomes more sincereMaybe our paths separate for todayMaybe foreverBut I don't mind anymoreWe had a great time togetherAnd nothing else matters anymore
CanyonIt always felt likeWe’re standing at two sidesOf a great, deep canyonAs my attempts to talk to youWere like trying to yellOver the canyonMy words were catchedBy the windAnd never reached youThat’s why my attemptsAlways gone unknown by you
UntitledDon’t want to close my eyesFrom everyday’s life’Cause then I can’t seeThat you’re looking at me.Don’t want to hide anymore’Cause then I won’t realiseThat you’re recognizing me.Don’t want to close my eyesFrom the lies you’re telling’Cause then I can’t see The truth in your eyes.Don’t want to hide my feelings’Cause then I can’t realiseThat you’re feeling the same.
Shadow angelUsed to be an angelBut you’re fallenWhite wings slowly turn into blackYou can’t fly anymore’Cause you’re losing your feathersFalling from broken bondsInto the darkest shadowsBut even when you’re fallenI can find you in the shadowsOf your own heartBecause your bright shining haloIs the guiding to find youSo let me take youOut of the darknessInto your light
ButterflyButterflyLittle thingAriving in springFlying over sunny fieldsWhile we make our memoriesBut dying in autumnAnd taking memoriesWith youAgain
Shooting starWishing for the night tocomeSo I can see the million starsagainAnd wish for a shootingstar . . . Even when it’s only the light of a plane ...
~~~When my heart searches for home,You are whom I long for.
Feel like shit? Read this. Hey you. Yeah you, reading this right now at this very moment. You are awesome. No, really, you are. You may not believe me, but it's true. You don't see it because you're upset right now. Whatever you're going through right now, whatever has upset you or turned your life upside down, just know that it won't last forever. Nothing good lasts forever, that's true, but nothing bad lasts forever too. Eventually whatever you're going through will pass, you'll move on through healing over time, and you'll be able to be happy again someday, don't worry. As long as you don't give up. You may never completely get over it, or it may take years or more to move on from, but I can promise as time goes on the pain will become less and less. It may feel like no one gives a fuck about you, and you may want to give up on living, but please don't. I can promise atleast one person out there gives a fuck. And if no one does, then I do. If you have no friends, I ca
Coffeeguts pile over whitesheets and blankets.i spilled them to youlast nightand you still saidi looked lovelya black sticky stain.how many chemicalscan your stomach handlebefore you have to drown me?how much bitternesscan you swallow? ~~~you are mycream and sugar, darling.and it tears me in halfwhen you split your skin.if you aren't carefuli might not be able tosip you up again.i am a powdery shadowcold autumn breezesand breathless cloudsbut if i could keep youbreathing, my world might bea little more alive
FourFour words So simpleSo small.FourAnd I'm terrified to say them most of all.I'd be admitting itAnd then there would be no stopping.Let me live in the land of denialWith lies on every corner. Those who matter to me come firstAnd my honesty would only hurt themOr would they be relieved I can admit it?I dare not whisper the words In fear of someone hearing.But I long to scream themTo set myself free.But I want more than anythingFor you to be happySo darling, can you smile for me?I'd love to see that pretty grin of yours.Will I tell you the words?Only when you're okay againBecause precious, you matter more than I.
WeightWeightThere is a weightYou asked me to hold.(Just for a while,Just for a while.)My tendons strain and snap,I lack your Atlas strength.The crushing force of gravityMakes me weak, makes me sore.Take it back, take it back,But you’ve gone away.I’m sinking down, I’m sinking down.The water rises to my throat.Pushing down, rising upDrowning and drowning and drowning.Take it back, please take it back,Where have you gone?I’m pinned beneath this weight,With water to my nose.My lungs fill up with salt,Choking and screaming and breathingOnly freezing thickness of water.Where is that mild friend oxygen?Where has he gone?My stinging eyes are blind here.I cannot to escape, unwillingTo shed this leaden snareWherein I dwell confined.By You.I grip it tightly.Surely I will die,Sweet air has left my bloodcompletely.I lay back and let black water take me,Frozen fingers loosen on Your weight.And all at onceit falls awaycompletely.I watch i
GayI am gay.I'm not a disease, I'm not a problemI'm not an afflictionI don't need treatment.I don't need helpI'm not sickI'm not confusedI'm not a sin.I am gay.I'm your daughterYour sisterYour friendYour co workerYour classmateYour acquaintanceA complete strangerI am gay.I need love, just like youI need smilesI need supportI need a hugI need a friendI need a familyI need acceptanceI need understandingI need youI am gay.I know what love isI know what pain isI know what hate isI know what life isI am gay.And I need you to love meThe same way you loved me before you knewI am gay.And I have experienced hateFrom more people than just youI am gay.And I wont change.I wont give up.I wont back down.I wont pretend.I wont lie.I wont deny.I wont hide.I wont hurt.I am gay.And that's okay.
SometimesSometimesI ask myselfWhat is love?What is hope?What is home?And then I realiseIt’s nothing to knowBut to feel.